I miss you so much.
"nobody will ever know the strength of my love for you, after all you're the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside"
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
2 years
Tyler
Hard to believe it has been two years since you were called up to heaven. Sometimes I walk in the room and feel like you will be there. It hasn't gotten easier, we miss you so much. I wonder what you would be doing now. Would you be finishing college, girlfriend, planning your future.
We love you Ty
Hard to believe it has been two years since you were called up to heaven. Sometimes I walk in the room and feel like you will be there. It hasn't gotten easier, we miss you so much. I wonder what you would be doing now. Would you be finishing college, girlfriend, planning your future.
We love you Ty
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Found on another Mom's page. It says it all.
What do we wish others understood about the loss of our child? Here is a partial list of such wishes:
I wish you would not be afraid to speak my child’s name. My child lived and was very important and I need to hear his name. I wish you wouldn’t feel awkward if I mention his name.
If I cry or get emotional if we talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn’t because you hurt me: the fact that my child died has caused my tears. You have allowed me to cry and I thank you.
Crying and emotional outbursts are healing. I will have emotional highs and lows, ups and downs.
I wish you wouldn’t think that if I have a good day my grief is all over, or if I have a bad day I need psychiatric counseling.
I wish you knew that the death of a child is different from other losses and must be viewed separately. It is the ultimate tragedy and I wish you wouldn’t compare it to the loss of a parent, spouse or pet.
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn’t shy away from me. I wish you knew that all the “crazy” grief reactions that I am having are in fact very normal. Depression, anger, frustration, hopelessness, the questioning of values and beliefs are to be expected following the death of a child.
I wish you wouldn’t expect my grief to be over in six months. The first few years are going to be exceedingly traumatic for us.
As with alcoholics, I will never be “cured” or a “former bereaved parent,” but will forever be a “recovering bereaved parent.”
I wish you understood the physical reaction to grief. I may gain or lose weight, sleep all the time or not at all, lose my short-term memory, develop a host of illness and be accident prone, all of which may be related to my grief.
Our child’s birthday, the anniversary of his death, and the holidays are terrible times for us. I wish you could tell us that you are thinking about our child these days and if we get quiet and withdrawn, just know that we are thinking about our child and missing him terribly.
Please understand the I am not the same person I was before my child died, and do not expect me to "get back to my old self". I am forever changed, but if you give me a chance, you may find that you like the "new me".
That about sums it up. But I also want to thank all that have been there for us. It means so much.
K
What do we wish others understood about the loss of our child? Here is a partial list of such wishes:
I wish you would not be afraid to speak my child’s name. My child lived and was very important and I need to hear his name. I wish you wouldn’t feel awkward if I mention his name.
If I cry or get emotional if we talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn’t because you hurt me: the fact that my child died has caused my tears. You have allowed me to cry and I thank you.
Crying and emotional outbursts are healing. I will have emotional highs and lows, ups and downs.
I wish you wouldn’t think that if I have a good day my grief is all over, or if I have a bad day I need psychiatric counseling.
I wish you knew that the death of a child is different from other losses and must be viewed separately. It is the ultimate tragedy and I wish you wouldn’t compare it to the loss of a parent, spouse or pet.
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn’t shy away from me. I wish you knew that all the “crazy” grief reactions that I am having are in fact very normal. Depression, anger, frustration, hopelessness, the questioning of values and beliefs are to be expected following the death of a child.
I wish you wouldn’t expect my grief to be over in six months. The first few years are going to be exceedingly traumatic for us.
As with alcoholics, I will never be “cured” or a “former bereaved parent,” but will forever be a “recovering bereaved parent.”
I wish you understood the physical reaction to grief. I may gain or lose weight, sleep all the time or not at all, lose my short-term memory, develop a host of illness and be accident prone, all of which may be related to my grief.
Our child’s birthday, the anniversary of his death, and the holidays are terrible times for us. I wish you could tell us that you are thinking about our child these days and if we get quiet and withdrawn, just know that we are thinking about our child and missing him terribly.
Please understand the I am not the same person I was before my child died, and do not expect me to "get back to my old self". I am forever changed, but if you give me a chance, you may find that you like the "new me".
That about sums it up. But I also want to thank all that have been there for us. It means so much.
K
Saturday, February 6, 2010
It's been one year
I can't believe it's been one year since Tyler left us. I still feel at times that I'll walk in the door and he'll be there.
It just stinks that he was doing so well and had been through so much to be taken so suddenly by a pulmonary embolis.
We are still trying to find our way in this new "normal" it's so hard! We all feel like a piece of our heart has been ripped out.
As for now we engulf ourselves in school and work. We want to find something special to honor Ty. We have done LLS "light the night" ACS walk, and written an article for Bone marrow donation drive. Thinking of starting a foundation in his name to help many organizations and a scholarship for kids that maybe in general have a challenging life. Tyler was interested in the scholarship, he asked about it several weeks before he died. Maybe he knew more than we did.
It just stinks that he was doing so well and had been through so much to be taken so suddenly by a pulmonary embolis.
We are still trying to find our way in this new "normal" it's so hard! We all feel like a piece of our heart has been ripped out.
As for now we engulf ourselves in school and work. We want to find something special to honor Ty. We have done LLS "light the night" ACS walk, and written an article for Bone marrow donation drive. Thinking of starting a foundation in his name to help many organizations and a scholarship for kids that maybe in general have a challenging life. Tyler was interested in the scholarship, he asked about it several weeks before he died. Maybe he knew more than we did.
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